About babykat’s Mistress

In future, Mistress might add her own page here.  I wanted to be able to talk about her, my feelings for her, and share my thoughts about a life with her. It’s less a description, more a spill of thoughts about babykat’s hearts desire.

Batling feels like everything to me, not only an experienced sadist but somebody who loves me and will care for me. She takes me for what I am, and I hope that she understands that I’m still growing as a slave and would so much appreciate her support and guidance along the way. 

Since Mistress was into the BDSM community from relatively young too, I wasn’t afraid to tell her that I was younger too, and don’t feel that I now have to keep things from her. Any relationship, in particular a developing or established S/m relationship, needs complete trust and we wouldn’t be the same without the knowledge that we can be completely honest with each other. I was hesitant at first, giving over the ‘real’ me to her, when others online had only known babykat. But if we hadn’t talked things like that through, and don’t continue to, we could have progressed further than any other vt friendship I’ve had. And Batling is too special to me to be part of anyone else.

It’s not about a lack of trust, but nervousness. Being with Batling is the first proper BDSM relationship I’ve had, and the only one that’s felt like it will last. I haven’t been through any of this before, and I’ve had some fucked up ‘half relationships’ in the past, so every little step feels like a big leap forward in my mind. Even things which afterwards can seem really straightforward have felt like a challenge in my mind. Each new detail that I wouldn’t normally give out has felt like another stage in my journey to fully becoming Batling’s own.

Of course, Batling doesn’t own me. She made it clear from the beginning, and I understood that, because wearing Her name was a sign of protection, love, not a collar signifying that I’d given my whole self over to her. I can’t deny that one day, I would like to belong to Batling, but it’s not the right time yet. There’s so much more to explore, more time to be with each other, and that journey is just a big a part of our relationship as any collar would be.